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Through It All

Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence? If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there! If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me. If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night,” even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is bright as the day, for darkness is as light with you. Psalm 139:7-12

So fades the flower of the day,

The brilliant colors of the light;

So mists of sorrow hide the way,

And I descend into the night.

How long, O Lord, shall this be so?

When will I see a newborn sun?

Why must I now in mourning go,

As with my tears all joys run?

I long to fly on dawn’s bright wings,

And taste the sweetness of the morn.

My starless sky no pleasure brings –

A womb from which no babe is born.

But darkness is not dark to You.

Though I am blind, You clearly see.

I trust You know my groanings, too,

And have ordained to rescue me.

Should I to heaven’s glories rise,

Or to the depths of Sheol fall,

Lord, grant me hope and faith-filled eyes

To see You near me through it all.

Psalm 88: Praying When Hoping is Hard

O LORD, God of my salvation, I cry out day and night before you. Let my prayer come before you; incline your ear to my cry! Psalm 88:1-2

 

You have caused my beloved and my friend to shun me; my companions have become darkness. Psalm 88:18

 

These verses bookend the cry of Heman the Ezrahite, the cry of the afflicted man. We expect, as the Psalms have trained us thus far, that at the end of this exasperated, barely-breathed lament that there will be some kind of conclusion, some denouement that gently replaces each fallen stone of this poor man’s life. But that’s not what we find. We find that he is forsaken – by his beloved, by his friends. The only companion he has left is the darkness in which he is drowning. Continue reading